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  “Memorize six lines of Mr. King’s speech and bring a food treat that will remind others of it,” Noah recited in a high-pitched, singsong tone.

  Maddie hid her smile. His imitation of his teacher, Mrs. Perkins, was uncanny. “Have you memorized a portion of the speech?”

  “The ‘I have a dream’ part.” Noah’s chest swelled as he precisely delivered the beginning lines of the famous speech. Then his pride visibly deflated. “I don’t know any food to go with that.”

  “I do.” Jesse stood nearby, his wonderful smile flashing. “Sorry, didn’t mean to eavesdrop, but those lines always remind me of Gran’s I Have a Dream snack.”

  “What’s an I Have a Dream snack?” Noah asked, seemingly interested.

  “It’s pretty easy, Ark Man.” Jesse grinned, and to Maddie’s surprise, Noah didn’t decry the nickname.

  “Ark Man?” She wrinkled her nose.

  “Like Noah in the Bible, Mom. ’Cause I have Cocoa. An’ there’s a roadrunner that goes past our place, too,” he told Jesse with an eagerness she hadn’t seen—maybe ever? “An’ sometimes coyotes howl. An’ Mom feeds hummingbirds.”

  “Wow.” Jesse looked impressed.

  “So I guess I kind of am Ark Man?” he said, obviously seeking confirmation.

  “Absolutely.” Jesse held up his hand to high-five, and Noah matched it. Both of them wore goofy grins.

  Maddie stared at her introverted kid. This change—because of Jesse?

  “So, to make these treats you need big marshmallows and some caramels,” Jesse continued.

  “I’ll find some.” Noah raced away before Maddie could stop him.

  “I’m sorry. I’m interfering without even asking you,” Jesse said after a quick glance at her. “I’ll go get him.”

  “Please don’t. It’s the first time Noah’s been that excited about anything since...ever.” Without thinking, Maddie put her hand on Jesse’s arm to stop him, then jerked it away when her brain repeated Noah’s strangers-forming-a-relationship fact.

  No relationship for her. Never going to get hurt again.

  “I warn you. If this recipe of Emma’s involves baking, it will be a failure.”

  “It will?” A puzzled look darkened his blue-eyed gaze. “But it’s simple.”

  “Maybe, but I can’t do simple baking,” Maddie admitted. “Actually, I can’t do complicated either,” she added, eyes downcast in a rush of shame. “I’m not a good cook.”

  “She’s not,” Noah agreed solemnly, having returned with a huge bag of marshmallows. “Ninety-nine point nine percent of her cooking burns.”

  “Noah!” Maddie exclaimed in embarrassment.

  “Fortunately, this recipe requires no cooking. Just melting.” Jesse glanced at the marshmallows, then raised an eyebrow at Noah. “Caramels?”

  “Couldn’t find any.” Noah looked dejected. “I guess we can’t make the snacks.”

  “You can always make I Have a Dream snacks, Ark Man. One hundred percent of the time.” Jesse’s firm tone had the strangest effect on Noah.

  “Okay.” His boyish shoulders went back and his face got a determined look that Maddie had not seen before. “How?”

  “We find caramels because they’re the best part. And we need cream.” Jesse beckoned. “Come on, you and I will check it out. They have to have them somewhere. Every self-respecting grocery store carries caramels.”

  “I didn’t know that.” Noah tucked the information away.

  A bemused Maddie trailed behind the pair, accepting the pint of cream Jesse handed her as she worried about where this was going to lead. To disaster probably, and not only for Noah. Melting meant heat, which meant burning, which meant...

  “Here we go. Crazy section to stock caramels in.” Jesse plopped two packages into Noah’s arms. “Let’s make sure we’ve got enough for seconds.”

  “I’m not allowed seconds of sweets. It’s a rule.” The non-challenging way Noah said that made Maddie wince. What normal eight-year-old didn’t automatically reach for seconds when candy was involved?

  Just another thing she planned to change. Help Noah shed his stringent list of rules and become a regular kid. Check.

  “Let’s take three.” She snatched another bag of caramels from the shelf. “Just in case they turn out okay.”

  Which they won’t. She repressed the memory of that scoffing voice.

  “I like your spunk, mother of Ark Man.” Jesse grinned at her. “We need dry chow mein noodles, too.” He laughed at their surprised expressions. “You’ll see. It’s delicious.”

  With noodles in hand, Maddie paid for their loot then led the way out of the store, wondering if sharing a sweet snack with his classmates would finally gain Noah acceptance from the other kids. He’d been an outcast for so long, mostly because of Liam’s rules.

  After her husband’s death Maddie had blown a good part of her budget to change Noah’s world. She’d located a private school that specialized in his issues and whose uniforms didn’t make him look weird. She had his home haircut professionally restyled and enrolled him in a swimming class because he seemed to excel at that one sport. Yet despite all that, Noah still clung to his father’s rules, which frustrated Maddie no end.

  “Now you have everything you need, Ark Man. You and your mom can melt the caramels with a little cream, dip in the marshmallows, then roll them in the noodles. My job is done, so I’ll be on my way. See you.” Jesse waved and turned away.

  He thought she could do this on her own?

  “Wait,” Maddie called out in panic. “Could you—uh, come to the house and show us exactly how to make them? Please? I’d ask Emma, but she’s away.”

  She sounded desperate. Well, she was!

  But she was asking for Noah’s sake, because she wanted him to know what it was like to be the one to bring a special treat, to be in the limelight in a good way. Just once she wanted Noah to be envied by other kids instead of being mocked.

  And maybe you’re asking because you like the way Jesse didn’t make fun of you for not being able to cook.

  Her son frowned in confusion. “Mom?” he whispered. “Stranger rule?”

  Liam’s rules had taught Noah fear, and Maddie saw it now in his brown eyes. She was usually wary of strangers, too. But funnily enough, not with Jesse.

  Why was that?

  “Um, maybe I shouldn’t go to your place,” Jesse said, his gaze on Noah. “I could just—”

  “Please come,” she invited, discounting her inhibitions. “I’d really like to make this treat.”

  “I guess, if you’re sure?” After a moment’s pause Jesse added, “Since Gran’s away I haven’t got anything special on tonight. Maybe after we’re finished I could use your phone to call Wranglers Ranch about a job?”

  “Sure. Tanner Johns owns Wranglers. His wife, Sophie, is a friend of mine. Actually, we’re neighbors.” Maddie stashed the second set of groceries in her vehicle. “If you help us, I’ll put in a good word for you in exchange.”

  Maybe she wasn’t being totally straightforward by not telling Jesse that his grandmother was an ardent supporter of Wranglers Ranch and its outreach mission for troubled kids, or that Emma’s referral would probably be far more valuable than hers. But Maddie needed Jesse’s help. For Noah. So she waited on pins and needles.

  “Okay, it’s a deal.” Jesse motioned to a battered brown half-ton truck that sat at the far end of the parking lot. “That’s mine. How far is your place?”

  “About ten minutes outside the city. We live on Broken Arrow Ranch. You can follow us there.” Maddie waited with bated breath until he nodded. As he walked away she was surprised to see him clap a black Stetson on his head. Where had that come from?

  You were too busy gawking at his hunky face to notice his hat.

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�I guess Jesse’s nice. But Dad’s rule...” Noah’s confused voice died away.

  “Jesse is Emma’s grandson. He’s like a friend.” She was doing this for Noah. She’d do anything to help him.

  You’re making another mistake, Madelyn.

  That voice killed the confidence she’d had in her hasty invitation, until she remembered her last talk with her boss.

  Maddie, you went from being a child to being a wife and then a mom. Now you need to take the time to figure out who Maddie is. Not Maddie, Liam’s wife, or Maddie, Noah’s Mom, but Maddie, the beloved child of God. The first step is to learn to trust your Heavenly Father.

  Okay then. She’d take this step, and maybe if she trusted God enough, He’d show her the next one, the step that would help Noah heal.

  “Jesse calls me Ark Man,” Noah mused aloud.

  “Is that okay?” she asked.

  “I guess.” A tiny smile curved his lips. “I never had a nickname before.”

  Because Liam hadn’t allowed them.

  “It makes you feel kind of special,” Noah said thoughtfully.

  Maddie pulled into her yard with a sense of wonder. Because of Jesse, her son the rule-keeper was changing. Was this the beginning of the breakthrough she’d been praying for?

  What else could happen?

  * * *

  Jesse was simply going to show Maddie and her kid how to make the treats his gran had taught him to make when he was Noah’s age.

  He was not going to get involved. So what could happen?

  As he climbed out of his truck his stomach issued a loud and angry protest at its empty state. He stomped his boots free of the dust to cover the rumblings. He’d been counting on one of Gran’s delicious meals to satiate his hunger. Clearly, that wasn’t going to happen, but maybe Maddie wouldn’t mind if he gobbled up a few of her treats.

  Jesse could tell by the look on the kid’s face when Maddie invited him inside that Noah minded him being there. Obviously, he’d heard many warnings to be careful of strangers. Not a bad thing, Jesse decided.

  “This is a beautiful spread.” He glanced around appreciatively. “The untouched desert is fascinating.”

  “I think so, too.” Maddie looked surprised by his comment. “I often sit on the porch with my coffee in the morning and just enjoy it. I love the peace.”

  Meaning she hadn’t had a lot of peace in her life? Curiosity about this woman mushroomed as Jesse took the grocery bags from her.

  “The mountains make a great backdrop,” Maddie said, as she unlocked the door and pushed it open. “Although coming from Colorado, you probably think ours are puny.”

  “No such—oof.” Jesse struggled to keep his balance as a chocolate lab jumped up at him. “Pleased to meet you, Cocoa.” He chuckled as the dog licked his hands.

  “Oh, I’m so sorry. Down, Cocoa.” Maddie tugged at the animal’s collar, dragging the dog away from Jesse. “Take her outside, Noah.”

  Jesse noted the boy’s frown as his glance moved from her face to his, his eyes dark and stormy.

  “Now, please, son,” Maddie said.

  After a moment Noah nodded and clipped the lead on the dog’s collar.

  “Hang on tight, Ark Man,” Jesse advised, as he plopped the grocery bags on the counter. “That’s a strong animal you’re taking out of the ark.”

  Noah almost cracked a smile as he half walked, half dragged Cocoa outside.

  “She’s a bit of a handful for him, but I’m hoping they’ll soon get used to each other.” Maddie smiled at Jesse’s questioning look. “Cocoa was my Christmas gift to Noah.”

  “Nice gift.” Her Christmas gift, not our gift, he noted. So where was the kid’s father?

  “If you want to wash before we make the treats, the bathroom’s just down the hall,” Maddie offered.

  “Thanks.” Jesse walked past her, noticing that aside from the caramels and marshmallows, there were no frivolous purchases. Fruit, vegetables, bread, frozen dinners, peanut butter and milk. The basics. No cookies, no chips, no junk food at all, except for the caramels and marshmallows. Poor Noah.

  She pressed the answering machine and listened to Noah’s teacher while she unpacked and stored her groceries.

  Jesse took his time scrubbing up. When he returned to the kitchen, Maddie was telling Noah to leave the dog outdoors. On the deck outside, Cocoa was busy chowing down. Every so often she gave a guttural woof, glanced around, then returned to eating.

  “Cocoa likes it better out there than inside the ark.”

  Jesse did a double take. Noah’s face looked blank, but a tiny smile twitched at the corner of his lips. He chuckled. The stiff-necked kid had actually made a joke.

  “So how do we make these treats?” With an apron wrapped around her narrow waist, Maddie stood primly poised behind the breakfast bar, hands folded, waiting for directions.

  Jesse got trapped admiring the way her chin-length black hair glistened like an ebony frame around her oval face with its huge green eyes. Her lashes, long and lush, helped accentuate the smooth angles and curves of her sculpted cheeks, complimented by a pert nose and full lips. Maddie wasn’t tall, yet when Noah was near she somehow seemed stronger, invincible.

  Jesse also glimpsed in Noah’s mother an innocence, a delicate fragility. For as long as he could remember he’d had this weird ability to see beneath the mask others presented. That proficiency now told him that Maddie had suffered, but somehow Jesse knew that though bent like a reed in the wind, she had not been broken by her suffering. Instead, the tentative way she smiled at him added to his hunch that hardship had left Maddie McGregor stronger, still genuine and sincere, uncorrupted.

  Exactly the opposite of his own world-weariness.

  “Is something wrong, Jesse?” Her considerate tone pulled him back from the cliff of his sad memories.

  Who was Maddie McGregor?

  “I shouldn’t have pushed you to do this tonight. You’ve been traveling.” She offered him a sympathetic smile. “I’m sure you’re tired. Maybe it would be better—”

  “I’m fine.” He noticed Noah sitting on the other side of the breakfast bar, watching them with those dark see-all eyes. “Gonna help, Ark Man? It’s for your class, isn’t it?”

  Silent, Noah slid off his stool and joined his mother.

  “First we need a heavy saucepan half full of water,” Jesse explained. “Once the water’s hot we can set another smaller pan inside it to melt the caramels.”

  Without a word, Maddie produced a pair of saucepans, half-filled the larger one with water and set it to heat on the expansive gas range.

  “Okay?” she asked, a nervous edge to her voice.

  “Great.” Jesse smiled to reassure her. “Let’s start unwrapping those caramels and putting them in this smaller pan.”

  “How many?” Noah deftly slid a candy out of its covering, but made no attempt to eat it.

  “How many kids in your class?” Jesse hid his surprise when Noah said eleven. “Small class.”

  “He attends a private school,” Maddie explained.

  “Okay, so eleven kids, multiplied by at least three treats for each. Let’s make fifty.” Jesse grinned at their surprise. “One of these is never enough, you’ll see. Plus they are small. Oh. I forgot to ask if you have toothpicks.” He noticed Maddie’s forehead crease in a frown. “Something we could use as skewers?” he prodded.

  “I don’t think so,” she murmured.

  “Does that mean we can’t make them?” Noah looked worried.

  “We can still make them, but it’s much easier if we have something we can poke through the marshmallow to dip into the melted caramels, and leave in so we can stand it up.” Jesse wasn’t sure why, but suddenly it seemed very important that he help this woman and her child make his gran’s treat.
“I could run back into town—”

  “Dad got sticks for my science project. There were some left.” Noah’s eagerness made Jesse smile.

  “Honey, I have no idea where those might be.” Maddie’s cheeks grew pink. She did not look at her son. “When we moved here we had so much stuff and—”

  “And you wanted to get rid of Dad’s stuff,” Noah’s harsh voice accused. “Waste not, want not. That was his rule.”

  “Yes, it was.” Maddie’s voice dropped to a whisper.

  Jesse hated the way her lovely face closed up, like a daisy when the sun went behind a cloud. He had to do something.

  “Can you call your dad and ask him if he knows where they might be?” he suggested.

  The room went utterly still.

  “He’s dead.” Noah’s voice broke. He glared at his mother. “You hated his rules, but I don’t.” Then he raced from the room.

  Jesse had vowed not to get personally involved in a kid’s life again, not after the fiasco in Colorado. Why hadn’t he stayed out of his grandmother’s favorite grocery store tonight? Why hadn’t he avoided this woman and her troubled kid, simply swallowed his impulse to help?

  Most of all, what was he supposed to do now to stem the tears tumbling down Maddie’s white cheeks as she stared after Noah?

  Lord, You know how I’ve failed others. You know I’ve vowed not to get involved again, to never again risk failing a child.

  So, God, what am I doing here with this woman and her troubled son?

  Chapter Two

  Weeping in front of a stranger?

  Liam would—Forget him!

  “I’m sorry.” Maddie swiped a hand across her wet face. “Noah is still struggling to deal with his father’s death.”

  “How long has it been?” Jesse asked quietly.

  For the first time since she’d met him, Maddie tried to recall Emma’s words about her grandson. Why had he offered to help them, strangers he didn’t even know?

  “Liam died of a heart attack just over a year ago.”

  “A heart attack?”

  She saw Jesse’s eyes flare with surprise and felt compelled to explain. “I’m twenty-seven. Liam was eighteen years older than me.”